Chapter 37 I Want You Dead Suddenly, there was a ratcheting noise. The woman on top of him hastily parted her face, but a mouthful of filth still spat onto his
Gilbert‘s face darkened instantly, and he shouted, “Kisa!” He unceremoniously pushed her away, yelling in anger. “Are you disgusted when I have asked you to please me? Don‘t forget, you were the one who shamelessly climbed into my bed in the first place.” “No, Gilbert…” Kisa tried to explain herself, only to have her stomach churning, and she threw up again.
Gilbert looked on coldly. In his eyes, this woman was deliberately doing this to disgust him. ‘If she wants to keep her body for that man and doesn‘t want to please him, just say so. Why does she want to disgust me this way?‘ He clenched his hands and gritted his teeth. “You really think I lack women that I need you to please me? I‘m telling you, I‘m asking you to please me because I want to humiliate you. I‘m sick to my stomach just looking at you right now.”
At first, Kisa wanted to explain but hearing his apathetic and heartless reply, words stuck in her throat. She pressed her hand on her cramping stomach and laughed sarcastically. “Really? I thought Mr. Kooper was really starving for women.” She struggled to get up and met his cold eyes, her smiling pale looking even uglier. “You are disgusted with me, just as I am also disgusted with you. We are even. From now on, stop making ridiculous requests like this, so we don‘t have to disgust each other.”
Gilbert looked away from her as if one more glance at her would sting his eyes.
Kisa took a deep breath and fought back the excruciating pain in her stomach. “What exactly do you want before you give the role back to Howard?”
“I want you dead, and I will give him back that role when you‘re dead. Can you do that?” With that, Gilbert left and slammed the door shut behind him. ‘Didn‘t she always like to play dead? Then I will let her pretend to her heart‘s content.‘
Still, with her hand pressing on her churning stomach, Kisa laughed dementedly. ‘Talking about heartlessness, no man can be as heartless as Gilbert. I was naïve enough to think that he would really return the role to Howard. And he set one condition after another just to humiliate me. Pleasing him? Heck! He was so disgusted with me as if I was garbage when I touched him last time. Not to mention that I’m now as ugly as hell. How could he really want me to please him then? The so–called pleasing him is really nothing more than humiliating
Kisa fell to the ground in pain and curled up into a ball. She was sorry that she could not fulfill the promise she had made to Howard. She realized she had overestimated her own ability and underestimated Gilbert‘s heartlessness. The pain in her stomach was getting more intense, and her vision gradually went dark. Kisa struggled to take out a bottle of pills, but when she remembered Gilbert‘s last sentence, she held onto the bottle without opening it.
Gilbert told her he would give Howard the role back as soon as she was dead. So she thought this time he might be serious. After all, she was the one he really wanted to get back at, not Howard. She figured that all revenge would be over as soon as she died. Kisa had wanted to live and had fought hard for her life. But to this day, she suddenly did not understand the meaning
of her efforts to live. She found she had achieved nothing but dragged her friends into it. Her beloved mother and child were all gone. Her only family, her father, and the man she loved most, Gilbert, all treated her as an enemy. She did not see any reason to live. If her death could help Howard regain his role, she thought it was worth it. She clutched the pill bottle in her hand, looked out at the sky dotted with starlight outside the window, and then slowly closed her eyes.